Tuesday, May 26, 2009

We will never sleep
Cause sleep is for the weak
And we will never rest
Till we're all fucking dead
We will never sleep
Cause sleep is for the weak
And we will never rest
Till we're all fucking dead
We will never sleep
Cause sleep is for the weak
And we will never rest
Till we're all fucking... dead
We will never sleep
Cause sleep is for the weak
And we will never rest
Till we're all fucking... dead
We will never sleep
Cause sleep is for the weak
And we will never rest
Till we're all fucking dead
We will never sleep
Cause sleep is for the weak
And we will never rest
Till we're all fucking dead

I refuse
I refuse
I refuse
To close my eyes
I have loved
And I have lost
I have turned
And I tossed
I have listened
I have watched
I have gave into this for long enough
I have lost and I have loved
Sleep had stolen far too much
So don't close your eyes
Not just yet
Sleep is just a cousin of death

I've said it before and I'll say it again
If you think you're alive
Then you're better off dead
I've said it before and I'll say it again
If you think you're alive
Then you're better off... (dead)
I've said it before and I'll say it again
If you think you're alive
Then you're better off (dead)
I've said it before and I'll say it again
If you think you're alive
Then you're better off... dead

I have loved
And I have lost
I have turned
And I have tossed
I have listened
I have watched
I have gave into this for long enough
I have lost and I have loved
Sleep had stolen far too much
So don't close your eyes
Not just yet
Sleep is just a cousin of death

So throw your diamonds in the sky
We'll stay gold forever
I can promise you one thing
So throw your diamonds in the sky
We'll stay gold forev...

I can promise you one thing
Death will take us all
I can promise you one thing
Death will take us all
We're all going to hell
We may as well go out in style
Death is a promise
And your life is a fucking lie

We will never sleep
Cause sleep is for the weak
And we will never rest
Till we're all fucking dead
We will never sleep
Cause sleep is for the weak
And we will never rest
Till we're all fucking dead

I refuse
I refuse
I refuse
To close my eyes

You better pray
Because
You be the anchor that keeps my feet on the ground.
The piano knows something i don't, so
Don't trust me.
Wonderboy,
On wings of integrity.
Sound of separation
in
The darkest night
Forever
From heads unworthy
We’re not gonna take it
Because
Dimonds arnt forever
Word to the wise
Sleep with one eye open
Because
The sadness will never end.
But maybe I will find the courage;
I wanna rock

the battle between good and evil

Alone,

She sits.

Weighted down by her fears and her dreams.

Who will help her rise?

When the world goes to hell

And no one’s left standing,

Will he regret everything?

Ruining her life

And never understanding,

She was always more than ordinary.

She was the bringer of hope and compassion, of humor and love

She was the goddess of “I’m not making a move” and worrying about BHS

But we, her cohorts who she created from humanities sins,

Stood loyal as time and time again,

The evil sorcerer struck mighty blows to her soul.

How could we have stood by and watched her fall?

The first two were the bravest (if I don’t say so myself)

Gabriel and fire bonded together,

To protect their mistress,

For it was she who had given them a purpose in this world.

They were shunned by the other “perfect” angels and elementals,

But they knew that the only way was to cast off the shackles that had been branded into their conscious.

Gabriel managed to do this without hesitation,

But fire was more susceptible to the pressure of others.

The goddess showed her how to be herself,

No matter how ugly it was.

The only way for us to win this war,

We must let our trust in each other be strong…but

The goddess must also

Find the courage in her to be who she truly is.

The Trouble With Butterflies

One fine spring day i was walking, quite alone,
when a butterfly flitted by,
i stuck out my hand and beconed him to land,
when it did so i looked around for a nother butterlfy in withc to mate it,
when i didnt find one i sat down and ate it.

Monday, May 18, 2009

sorry

im sorry;
nicole; for stealing your "rock climbing gear"
tony; for everything
gina; that everyone's out to get tony
olivia; for being angry about the dance
josh; for 5th grade
helen;im sorry that tony's mean and that your hamster died
maddy; that nate's moving
savanah; about the stupidity of boys
gabe; that
alex; that you... have to put up with me and nicole
So clever, whatever,
I'm done with these endeavors.
Alone I walk the winding way.
It's over, no longer, I feel it growing stronger.
I'll live to die another day, until I fade away
Why give up, why give in?It's not enough, it never is.So I will go on until the end.We've become desolate.It's not enough, it never is.So I will go on until the end.Surround me, it's easy to fall apart completely. I feel you creeping up again. It's over, no longer,
I feel it growing colder. I knew this day would come to end, so let this life begin
Why give up, why give in?
It's not enough, it never is.
So I will go on until the end.We've become desolate.
It's not enough, it never is.But I will go on until the end.
I've lost my way.I've lost my way, but I will go on until the end.

Living is hard enough without you fucking up

Why give up, why give in?It's not enough, it never is.So I will go on until the end.We've become desolate.It's not enough, it never is.But I will go on until the end.I've lost my way.I've lost my way, but I will go on until the end.The final fight I win,the final fight I win,the final fight I win, but I will go on until the end

Friday, May 15, 2009

He is everything...maybe

I built walls on the outside
to protect whats on the inside.

i am tough with misttrust
covered in iron,steer,and barbed wire of my own design.

Feeling no pain but for the
dull rythmic beating from my chest.

strong

i satnd wtih feelings that crash up inside me,
i just want to help,
but held within these
wall's i've built

i am alone.

As i stand on the inside
they're on the out,
begging to be let in.
but my fortress is inpenitrable
.


legends have been built and guesses made about what's inside,

and i would break down my walls if not for the scorn that i would meet
for the last time i opended up,
i fell too hard,
and now i am asking for help to break frre of my heven, of my hell.
fake guns pointed to heads,

pretend knives on our wrists,

boredom has many flavors;

suicide,
homicide,
death by bomb...you get the picture.

but while we are hamming it up in here,

people are actually doing that.

and the reality of that situation
makes me want to cry.
stop thinking and just,
for once,
act on your impulse.

dont sit there waiting for her to fall to your feet begging for you to love her back,
because we alll know that she won't.
take a risk

because if you don't, you'll regret it for the rest of your life.

Monday, May 11, 2009

love

sometime i think life would be so much easier
if life had a soundtrack.

that way we could know when dangers was going to happen or when he would profess his love...


but then again i wish i was skinny and pretty

Saturday, May 9, 2009

alone

the hard brick against my back
watching them blissfully
turn around in continuous circles
and for the breifest of moments...
the world
feels
right

but then there is always that look of happiness on his face
because he's with her
that puts a knife in my chest
and
they dont even know it

screw this

sorry i wasn't pretty enough for you....

olivia....I'm not mad at you

Friday, May 8, 2009

Music

When someone asks for your i-pod, how do you respond?
cuz i normally am very protective of my i-pod and dont let many people touch it.
cuz my ipod is the metaphorical window to my soul.
when people tell me my music sucks, i will take offense.
duh.
its part of me.
other people pick music that the popular kids like.
i choose music that speaks for me.
so when you take my i pod think before you diss my soul.


thanks
god.
boys are so stupid.
they only care about our bodies and then some
WE ARE MORE THAN WALKING BOOBS!!!!!!!!
get it through your thick skulls
just ask her out already.